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a sneak peek to my dekstop

okay. so today i saw this All Time Low's new video and through this they show that they kind of like vid chat with their fans
and guys
i cried bcs its so fcking beautiful
i know how it mean to have that kind of inspiration in yr life
like yknow these guys and you hooked with these guys
and suddenly you met these wonderful fans that shared the same interest as you and guys
its different okay and thats priceless
like we shared he same love that maybe others cant understand
and maybe
thats why
i cant let go of suju
bcs they gave me so much
like ive gained tons of friends that im not embarrassed to call family
bcs they are, deep down.. i love them so much
like when i fought w someone, or when im worried w something, they were the one that i seek bcs i know they will be there, they always are and im so grateful for that
and no. i dont think i can ever let go of that
ever
and actually im not really a hustlers, im more of astronauts kind of girl
and yeah
im not really a forthcoming kind of person
im that one dork that always keep everything to myself and when i cant hold it in anymore ill start crying in my room like a total weirdo
my outlet? my diary, i guess
and yeah ive got tons of them
i mean ive got these fancy notebooks and itll go to waste if i just let it go.
my blog too
but im not really like talk there
ive got this tendency to not trust others that easily
it took me ages to be able to tell others what i really feel, to share something w someone else
that, plus my introvert?! pffttt! its such a nuisance
and yeahhh
thats why i love music
bcs the lyrics sometime reflect my situation perfectly
and simple plan's welcome to my life hits me more that i thought it would
the lyrics mannnn it goes wayyyyyy downnnnn my soul
actually one of my abangs that introduced me with them, like one day i was messing w his phone and mannnnn he and his brothers were the one that open my eyes with the greatness of simple plan, good charlotte, mcr and others. like damnnnn when i first heard their songs, i bluetoothed it to my phone.
idk why the guys in my life always got this special power to identify good music like im not i guess
hahahah
but the point is
music sometimes could be more than something to fill yr ears.
music could save lives
music could change people
it could open someone's eyes to be better
to be your fcking self without caring what others might think

i wanna like talk w a complete stranger and then suddenly
accidentally
slipped out
TARDIS DALEK C3PO BB8 Anakin Bilbo Muggle Ravenclaw or other geeky stuffs
HELL! even if some itgids came out

dreammmmmmyyyyyy

and
i want a guy that wont call up on my geekiness
and ill keep my mouth shut on footballs or video games
even thou
i will always think of CR as an inspiration and Steven Gerard as one of the most loyal footballer ever
or I watch Pewdiepie in my free time or I enjoy Markiplier. like... itsokayyyy

im that kind of person yg akan dengar GOOD CHARLOTTE SIMPLE PLAN bila aku sedih
yang suka hati je bantai lyric MCR P!ATD FOB semua
yang kalau geram biar pekak telinga ni dengar Crown The Empire Beyond The Horizon bagai
yang akan cair dengar Andrew Velasquez Brendon Urie Gerard Way Patrick Stump
yang kalau time nak mellow tu pasang AVA FAMY
yang suka bantai emo sebab relates dengan diri ni
yeahhh

so...
todayyy i wanna tell you guys about my dream guy
like im a girl dude
like i need to have that kind of list
so basically i want someone taller than me
like thats the first thing that crossed my mind every time someone asked me this
next someone who can understand my obsessions and try to adapt w my crazy self bc lemme tell you im kind of hard to handle.. ask my mum if you dont wanna believe me
and when i went to my fangirling mode he will be there and just shove it as me being me
and he tried to understand a little about it
and like when i do something wrong he will try to gimme advice as discreet as possible
and when going anywhere, he will be the first one that suggest us to perform our prayers
and he choose his mother over me
aaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnndddddddddddddddddddddddd
the most importing thing is he never let out the L bomb unless he really meant it
the last one is the one that truly important
people said it like its a normal thing
but the thing is love is a really beautiful thing
its so sad to watch others destroy it by saying those words mindlessly.

like whutttt

so i think everyone dah tahu pasal omegle right?
yeah. the chatroom. that chatroom.
so, i was on it the other day bc alyn keep insisted us to like take a look at it
and me being me do the exact same thing as that
and people keep like lets have sex
like whuttt
asl asl asl asl asl
kik snapchat
like whuttt
but then
then i met leo
like he was the omegle warrior or some sort
he said he was a she at first
and i was like cool, me too bc im pretty sure the vagina gave me away
and then he said that he is a guy and hes like whiplash the guys that keep asl asl asl asl asl
kik snapchat
and i was like thats so cool dude
and then we found out that we have the same book obsessions
and then he asked me what kind of music am i into
and i was like emo till the end, patd mcr fob
and he was like the emo trinity
and i was like, you too exclamation marks and i just blurted it out that hes my bestfriend
like whuttt
we hit it off right then
so yeah
and we call ourselves each other's twin
like whutttt

its nice to meet you, you dork
keep in touch, twin. :)